“The plane hasn’t landed already, has it?”
Feeling anxious, I left my husband—who said he’d go park the car—and rushed into Terminal 1 toward the arrivals area for flights from Seoul.
People were slowly coming out. I saw a Korean woman nearby wave to a man in a suit and asked her,
My child, who had left home young and full of dreams to see the world, finally appeared. His skin was dark from the sun, and he had a huge backpack on. He looked like a Southeast Asian traveler. First class or economy—it’s just a difference in comfort, not in speed. The plane flies the same for everyone!
At the Alaska airport, where the plane stopped briefly, I got off and looked around to find her—but she was nowhere to be found.
This distant cousin had lived a hard life in Korea, then moved to the U.S.—the land of dreams—and worked hard in her small business. She became fairly successful. We had met a few times at family gatherings. Each time, she would greet me with a slightly condescending tone:
“Still living in that place?”
Long ago, she had visited me in my freezing studio apartment in Brooklyn with no heat. Maybe that image stuck with her. In her mind, I was probably still shivering there, wrapped in a blanket.
For many of us, life in America started as a life of struggle. When we left Korea, we did it with the hope of filling in the gaps in our lives—to live better. But some people, once they feel a little more stable, forget those hard times. Instead, they let out shallow, cheap feelings of superiority at every chance they get.
Thinking about it now, I realize that I, too, must have said or done things that left scars in others—things that came from my own small pride. Maybe the arrogance others show me now isn’t something I should be so angry about.
Maybe it’s just my turn.
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