Ode to Small Things

I do not like tall and large-built men. Of course, they may dislike someone as small as me, but my father, who was also short, felt the same way. I clearly remember the frown on his face when my older sister brought home the man she was going to marry—a man not only tall but also overwhelmingly large. Perhaps the gaze of that towering man looking down at him pricked my father’s pride, a man who had firmly endured the hardships of life with his small frame. Maybe I inherited this instinctive dislike of tall people from him, a tendency to dismiss them without even considering their character. When someone is too big, I feel as if my breathing space is being taken away. It gives me an oppressive sense of being crushed, making me want to leave the room.

I prefer small, modest flowers to large, extravagant ones by the roadside. The dazzling blooms easily capture people's attention, while the tiny, unassuming ones seem to wait patiently for someone to notice them, evoking a sense of melancholy. When I see something small, my heart swells with affection, drawing me closer. I can pass by large things without a second glance, but small ones make me stop, examine them closely, and even feel the urge to speak to them—perhaps because I relate to them.

I prefer fine lines over bold strokes. Maybe that’s why I specialized in etching, a printmaking technique that uses delicate lines to build an image. When I carve fine lines with my small hands, I feel a sense of exhilaration. Working on a small canvas makes me more focused, allowing me to pour my heart into my work. My creations, formed through fine, intricate lines, do not belong in grand exhibition halls. Instead, they find their rightful place in quiet corners—perhaps along a hallway leading to a restroom or at the far end of a corridor. If someone notices my artwork in passing, just for a brief moment, the piece, which had been silently keeping its place, will greet them with a quiet smile.

My English name is written entirely in lowercase: sooim lee. A woman I met at a gallery recently asked, "Why do you write your name in lowercase letters?" Others, too, have questioned whether it was a mistake. But I simply prefer lowercase letters. Perhaps it is my way of justifying my existence—small, subtle, and barely noticeable, just like me.